wat m i goin through?

its been a long time i din write here.. i dun noe y.. m happy dat i got offer to further my study here at uitm but still.. i feel like sumtin missin sumwhere.. m not happy at all :( sad rite? ive been tinkin lateli m i da one whom to b blame? or m da one dat lookin 4 sumtin dat never exist? m not happy.. :( i feel TENSE!!!